Blog #1

I fell asleep last night with Judgment Day on my mind. It was just before midnight and I laughing to myself about waking up in the morning, still here, still living and how everyone else would be too.

But I was not laughing when I woke up this morning. I was not giggly. I didn't feel like posting a funny reference on Facebook about being confused about what time the Rapture must be taking place. And I post OFTEN on good ol' FB.

I like to think of myself as witty/clever/funny/humorous. That isn't how I'm feeling at all. I woke up weighed down, burdened even. I started to cry on my way downstairs. I cried as I decided to start blogging, sitting in my rocking chair and I cried harder when trying to explain my tears to a rather bewildered Melissa. I'm starting to cry again. Because while I will be glad in The Bible once again proved being true - nobody knows when He is returning, Matthew 24:36 - there are thousands of people that will be disappointed, confused and hopeless when Jesus doesn't return for them today. And that isn't something to make light of. That isn't something I can feel superior about because I know The Truth. I'm pretty sure Jesus does not think that is funny or silly or something that doesn't need to be taken seriously and as His follower, I should want to to respond like Him.

So I'm going to be careful today and not poke fun. Not make a joke at the expense of someone else's lost hope. I don't want to be a jerk, I've already wasted enough time not being the woman Jesus intends me to be. So instead, I'm going to pray for the people misled and let down. I'm going to ask God to show them His truth, who He really is. I'm going to thank Him for the people that have spoken truth into my life, for His Word that is irrefutable and ask for His guidance and help to look more like him.

First grown up blog. Done.